I wanted to talk to some one without actually talking to anyone. So I got online. Where I could hide behind a screen name. I am struggling with allot of stuff. But I am just dissatisfied with life. It's like we're all trudging on to our graves. All the pain and suffering. All the loss, disappointment. All for nothing. I think I'll take a short cut. Straight to my grave. I used to cut when depressed. I stopped when I found someone who made life worth living. Now she's gone. Im back to where I started. I have made so many mistakes in life. I just dunno what to do. I have become addicted to porn. I have insomnia. When I get sleep I have nightmares. I am severely underweight. My mind is so messed up. I know that I must own up to my mistakes maybe try to fix my life . But I threw away my life.
Hi D3pr3551on, thank you for reaching out to us. It sounds like you are going through a really hard time. From what you have told us, we strongly advise that you see a counselor as soon as you can so that they can help walk you through this. We are here for you on this online space, if you want to talk here.
No life is a waste, no like is thrown away. We all make mistakes, some larger than others, this is the human condition. It may be a little hard to live with the consequences but with a little help we are often able to live through the hardest of times.
Kindly see a counsellor to help you through this.